Fear Factor

Well the real battle begins tomorrow!  The surgery to remove the cancer from my breast and right armpit.   I am nervous, scared actually.  My family and friends will be there to provide their support which is something that I am truly thankful for. 

I ran some last minute errands this afternoon and couldn't help but think about tomorrow and if I will be here.  My daughter T has always told me "gosh mom, don't say stuff like that!"  I have a very, "just keeping it real" type mentality.  Since this diagnoses I have been doing my best to stay positive (and have been for the most part), but sometimes find I am really trying to convince myself to be/remain positive - That probably makes no sense. On the flip side, I feel that Dr M. is extremely competent and I have nothing to worry about tomorrow. 

I was instructed to take the week off to recuperate.  I plan to read and overdose on Reality TV :) If I'm not to bad off I will make a post or two.